Moving, new job, career transition, and trying to be chill.
I’d been coasting on a wave of excitement moving from DC to Austin. That excitement is pretty much dried up and in it’s place I feel anxious, unsettled and a little bit sad about missing all my friends in DC.
New job, who this?
I’m beyond grateful that a company looked at my credentials as a blogger, took them seriously and hired me. (people often dismiss blogs as easy avenues for free clothes or travel, but it’s a ton of hard work to do the craft well). I’ve wanted to be in marketing since my first professional job, but we ended up moving (to DC from Philly area) before I could make the leap.
The hardest part of this transition is feeling like a fraud. Which is ironic because I felt like a fraud as a scientist and as a blogger. And now, in retrospect, I can acknowledge that I was really good at both of those things.
Lessons from a paycut
And then there’s the paycut, I’m making a third of what I made at my first job. It’s really hard not to feel like I’m not making enough. But there are two major silver linings here:
- I’m not paying for more education to transition to a new career- that’s huge.
- I’m learning how to be thrifty, If I can maintain that as my pay goes up I’m golden for retirement.
Being back in the workforce
It’s really nice being back in the workforce, it really is. Ooey just turned three and it’s increasingly hard to do anything that’s not her idea. (Martin is now staying at home with her, but that’s a whole different blog post). The time I spent at home with her was perfect, she was a great age to go with the flow and I was in the right headspace to stay at home. But, she hit two and a half and I was ready for some space.
I did forget what working in an office was like. I’d been writing the DC blog solo and was my own boss. Sharing space, trying to be productive with chatter and people and interruptions (constant interruptions, just gonna say that I’m not a fan of the open floor plan type office) has been kind of tough. Maybe it’s an East Coast attitude of minimal talking and lots of work, maybe I haven’t shaken off the need to get as much done as possible because I’m drowning in work (grad school) or maybe I’m just a B word (it has been suggested before). (Kidding about that last part)
Trying to commute like a city person
If you want to be a true weirdo in Austin, be a one car family. I REALLY lucked out with the location of this job and have decided to walk to and from work. (This doubles as a workout because I’ve not gone to the gym in over a month, I usually go daily but am totally lacking in motivation right now and I’m gonna be easy on myself and not feel bad about it.)
The lack of a car is definitely obvious in Austin, which is truly a giant suburb more than a tight, compact city. One of my coworkers suggested I Uber too and fro, which is missing the point of pretending I still live in a city. My walking commute is my time, there’s no work to be done, no child to care for, no dogs to keep from lunging at bikes. It’s just me, my favorite podcasts and a coffee.
Gotta wrap this up..
To sum it all up, because I need to leave for said job. This transition has been emotionally exhausting. I miss my friends, I miss the events I used to attend in DC as a blogger but I’m really excited to be back to work doing exactly what I wanted to be doing. And as Rebecca C of Tea with Mrs. B once told me, you can have it all but not all at the same time.